Tuesday, April 3, 2012

What They See

I've looked into these eyes countless times.
They are perfect. They are innocent. They are hopeful. They are full of pride. They are loving.

These are the eyes of my 3 year old.
I have often asked myself what these eyes see when they look at me.

To these eyes I am the most beautiful woman they have ever seen.
I have magic kisses that heal any "owie" instantly.
I am the best cook in the world.
I have eyes in the back of my head.
I come up with brilliant games to play.
I give the best hugs.
I am their moral compass.
I am the world's best singer.
I am an awesome dancer.
I have a direct line to speak to Jesus.
I smell like roses.
I am a role model.

This is how my children look at me.

I feel an immense amount of pressure to not let them down.

If I complain that I am not beautiful, they will be confused about what beauty is.
If I tell them to "suck it up" when they get hurt, my kisses will not be needed anymore to heal.
If I don't pay attention to what they are doing, they will get into trouble.
If I don't have time to play with them, I will become boring.
If I don't take the time to cuddle with them, my hugs will not be so special.
If I make a have a "bad judgement" moment, they will know that they can too.
If I don't sing and dance with them, singing and dancing will not be as silly.
If I don't pray or read my Bible, they will think they don't need to either.

But I am not perfect, and it is inevitable that I will make mistakes. I will be "too busy" to play with them at times. My kisses will someday lose their healing power. I will say something stupid silly in front of them {"we don't say stupid mommy"}. I will miss a devotional. I will burn dinner. I will have bad breath. I will not have any ideas on a game to play. I will yell at somebody in traffic.

But God's grace can redeem all those things where I will let my kids down. I have learned so much about forgiveness from my own children. When I have lost my temper with them, or when I have been too selfish to play with them, and when I have been broken with them and apologized for letting them down; they forgive me instantly. To them I am still perfect. Even in my failures I am still flawless. I am inspired to be a great mom because of my children.

It makes me wonder how Christ looks at me? Does He see me as perfect?
He knows how I sin. He know where I am weak. And yet, He still loves me.

Ephesians 2:4-5 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ; by grace you have been saved.

Praise God for His grace and mercy! He forgives my failures, just as my children do. I'm so lucky to be a daughter of Christ and I'm so lucky to be a mother to some very forgiving boys. And I am blessed that to their innocent eyes, I'm still perfect.





Danni Baird @ Silo Hill Farm said...

Such a beautiful post! I am moved.

the lowes said...

whew. so good, SO good girl. its been on my heart a lot to as my 2 year old is now getting to the point where I know she will actually start remembering things that happen now later in her life. I have so many things I want to teach her and show her but I often let my own insecurities, lack of knowledge, busyness, get in the way. OH buy how I long to show her the things of the Lord. I know He will direct me!! thanks for this precious post!! :)

Erin said...

Love it, awesome post!

Isabel Santos said...

Love <3

Anne said...

They say the eyes are the windows to a person's soul. Your son's eyes are a reflection of God's love for you. Very inspiring.

Katie said...

this is beautiful. and I love that verse and am so thankful for God's grace. And thank you for your comment on my post yesterday. I loved how you said that it is God's desire to bless me. That is such a comforting thought and it is so amazing that God does desire to bless us. thank you again for your encouragement!

Heather said...

what an amazing post!

Jami said...

i love every word of this!

Shane said...

Very heartfelt. He is beautiful!

xo Shane

Kristine Foley @ TheFoleyFam said...

So beautifully written. This has been on my heart lately and I just couldn't get the words out, but you did it for me. Thanks so much for sharing and linkin up to The Foley Fam Blog! I appreciate it :)

Caroline G. said...

love this!

Nessa Bixler said...

How perfect to read after a hard, hard Monday. Amazing how blessed we are with grace. Beautiful.

Jelli said...

Wonderful post! My husband always says similar things about parents as the examples for their kids--especially dads to daughters. Thanks for your wisdom. So HAPPY to have found your blog this morning.